I think I decided to not let this get to me anymore. I’ve started cutting again after stopping for so long. As hard as it’s going to be I think I need to just let go of her and try to move on. 

I want you so baddd. Just to look at you and know your mine again would make my entire life. I’d tried so hard to make it different, to make it work. I’d make sure we went out and did thing instead of staying at your house all the time. I’d make sure we take it slower and not rush in like last time. I’d make sure I’m everything you’d ever want. I’d make sure you’re perfectly happy, every moment your awake, and I’d make sure I’m there whenever you aren’t happy. I’d dry your tears and take you out for ice cream and cigarettes. I’d make everything work. Just for you. Because you’re perfect. And I love you.